Decision Time

I am a day late. It's not the same time next week, as the title of my blog suggests. I pride myself on being consistent, but I wasn't this time, It's because it's decision time. There are two options: left, or right. Turn left, and jump into the void. Hope for the best. Decide on the attitude to adopt, keep it top of mind, and just jump. Turn right and stay in the familiar. With its lot of challenges, and opportunities to make mistakes. Never life threatening mistakes, but mistakes nevertheless. Turn right and deal with negativity, anger, discontent, personalities, – execute other people's decisions even if I disagree. Left feels risky in the current economic context; despite all of the safeguards put in place. Left feels like an unplanned change, with the risk of upsetting people who are trying to help. Right feels like a jail sentence – unless I am able to change the way I look at it. A long time ago, on the PBS kids channel, there was an add which portrayed blindfolded children reaching into a bowl of spaghetti and blurting out what they were touching. Worms! Snakes! Brains! Came the answers. And then the caption : "It's all how you look at it." So what matters most, is not whether I turn left or right, but what attitude I choose to adopt when I make the decision. And so perhaps going back to my values is the best way to make the decision. What are my values? 1) Connecting (Heart) - I need to create harmony. To have nurturing, enriching, and sustainable relationships. I need to connect with others through sharing powerful and enriching experiences. I need to love deeply, laugh, and feel joy, 2) Doing (Energy) - I am enthusiastic, positive, healthy, bubbly, hopeful, intense and I accomplish a great deal with a high level of energy. 3) Authenticity (Truth) - I am transparent, have good intentions, and can't lie 4) Justice (Fairness) - I don't tolerate unjust situations. Integrity is paramount 5) Recognition - I need to feel valued, appreciated, cared for, loved, and cherished 6) Learning - I need to learn from every experience - both in and out of my comfort zone So....left or right? Maybe a compromise is possible. For a short time. Until I am certain of what the right course of action should be. Until my brain is thinking clearly again with the right chemicals feeding the neurons and synapses who should connect to make the best decisions. It's a chicken shit decision - I am well aware of this....but it seems like the right one to explore today. Until next week....